I accidentally found a friend’s blog
Something kinda funny happened yesterday.
While I was browsing the Discover tab on Bear Blog (one of my favourite activities as of late), I randomly found the blog of an old friend. I haven’t talked to this person in a long time, and I’d thought the relationship had kind of sagged for some reasons I should not get into. So I spent some time reading all of their blog entries and felt a strange sensation, like… satisfaction?
This person isn’t a part of my life anymore, but they were at a very important time. Reading their entries and knowing that they’re okay, that they’re doing their best in life and always striving to be a better person, well, it made me feel good, and it made me miss them too. I thought about our shared past and reckoned that maybe, just maybe, the reasons why we stopped talking were petty (on my part) and reasonable (on theirs). But this acknowledgment isn’t enough to build a relationship back up from the rubble, and though I miss the person, surely I miss the version of them I met back in the day (more than 15 years ago!). It wouldn’t be fair to pop back up in their life and somehow ask them to be that person I once knew. They’ve changed so much, and so have I.
I don’t know. I think I’ll just cherish what we had when we were friends, and maybe one day I’ll reach out if I ever feel ready for it. Even if we’re not on talking terms, finding their blog made me feel grateful for what we shared.